ive gt an attitude

2010-08-18T03:22:00.001-07:00

miss you finally

2010-08-03T14:29:00.000-07:00

so the usuals headed over t marina bay sands(MBS) t stay (awake) for the night

sulky little one

2010-07-24T13:56:00.000-07:00

i can feel that you were so close

i am one confused child when it comes to blogging. this was from tuesday btw. haha.

headed over to crash pet's mambo lesson in the evening cause i was just so curious how exactly do you learn mambo or even conduct the classes t begin. haha. but it turned out to be hell shit fun! RETRO FTW:D

im just trying my luck, idk if anyone even reads the nonsense im writing but haha, interested ones can drop an email t

si.petrina@gmail.com

swear you'll have an hour nd a half of fun!:D

tryna learn bizarre love triangle!

check out the boys in the reflection. haha. absolute retards!

2010-07-23T13:49:00.000-07:00

i'll take you there

headed out for dins with pet nd jem today. argh. major unluckies): got into a cab nd the uncle told me he's changing shift so he cant make the trip t town. nd then this random guy suddenly appeared infront of me along the stretch of road, stole my cab nd gave me the "haha! i got your cab!" face.

frolicked ourselves up nd les picked us up for coffee over at orchard parade hotel! met caju over at zouk after. headed t velvet with christie nd chermin nd got pawned in 5/10 by shaun again. can still taste the sambucca nd vodka on my tongue): no likes.

was a bitch tryna retrieve chermin's bag from the bag drop cause the person insisted that chermin had t be there. headed t butter after cause zouk was so boring but butter was just as badddd): nd i finally had my sliced pork ba kut teh soup over at outram! HEH HEHS! happsers child! thanks gm(: heh heh!

2010-07-20T13:29:00.000-07:00

you've blown my mind

headed to barracks cafe for dinner t celebrate pet's birthday. hehe. dins was pretty awesome. skinny pizzas ftw! HEEHEE! was a bitsy late cause it was uberrrrrr hard t get a cab):

BIRTH(BIRD)DAY GIRL!

SQUID INK PIZZA! HEH HEH! YUMMSERS!

ham nd cheese!

lovey's steak!

so the boys (keith nd caju) asked for chilli/ketchup for their mains nd it came in a smiley face! absolutely cutesy!

so after dinner keith, caju nd i had t run off t paragon t collect the cake i ordered (btw ordering process was fucked maximum) nd we left the birthday girl wondering where we all dashed off to. haha.

headed t one twenty-six for the cake surprise where we tried covering the cake with the menu(s) but i guess the glow from the candles was just wayyyyy obvious. HAHA. nd sups came t join us for the cake! HEHS HEHS!

happsers girl!

birthday cake!

love this shot! if only it was taken by the dslr!

headed t zouk after for drinks nd music nd i would say th dj wasnt too baddddddd but he did get boring after awhile.

heheh! moustached!

2010-07-16T10:56:00.000-07:00

a real good time

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damn, this is cliche.

2010-07-12T13:18:00.000-07:00

heart takes off on a high speed chase

spent the sunday over at debby's with xtiee,tabbsb nd the boys. poker nd mj plus catching the world cup finals after. for someone who barely sits through a soccer game, i would say the world cup was pretty much exciting. i wouldnt think i'll jump onto the soccer bandwagon though. no chances of me going crazy over the epl.

stayed up to make it in time to the airport to send my favouritest gay boy off): drive there was pretty much awesome despite the driver being a major grouch due to the lack of sleep, sun was glaring right in our faces, but in the " i dont mind. since you look so awesome" manner.

googled directions to get to the airport since well, driver nd i both agreed its stupid t pay 5 bucks just t travel on the cte for less than a minute.

dirty windscreen spoil my shot all):

keith's pepper filled mcmuffin. lied t him that eating too much pepper would cause blindness nd he actually believed me for abit. HAHA

favouritest handsomemest hou man wor gay boy):

driver's hashbrown with maple syrup. EWWWWWWWWWWW

gay moments

keith's classic shot

had the driver promise me to head to jones the grocer for brekkie the night before nd i absolutely love the feeling of breakfast on a lazy weekday morning. hehs(: this little girl that sat at the table beside ours made my day when she continuously waved t me. cutesy(:

earl grey tea(:

jones traditional english breakfast

poached eggs on toast

asked him t smile nd this is what i got. i swear he stole my shrooms, bacon nd sausages. his plate's not as pathetic as it looks

cutesy lil girl dragging her mom's bag around. haha

terror begins.

terror continues

the terrifying terrorist. sometimes i wished i took the back seat, if its not that inconvenient t climb into, just so i can avoid the terrorism. haha.

on the way back home, for some god knows why reason, this taxi uncle who was stuck beside us at the traffic light started laughing at us. must be the driver's dancing. and i was forced to wave to the police car beside us, only to get a wtf glare from the police. wtf. idk why i even obliged t begin.

the almost clear blue skies

plushies from the driver! major cutesy!

agreed:D!

2010-07-08T13:34:00.000-07:00

time t revive this blog, pen some memories down.

after a whole night of craziness over at mambo which chermin nd i are guilty as charged for drinking till 330, i spent the early parts of my thursday morning camping at my toilet bowl puking out bile, finally woke up early noon t realize i missed the doctor's appointment. HAHA

rushed out t get my nails done in town nd had a lil spare time to do some shopping around after the driver told me he was gna be late t pick me. so there the grouchy two, who had t miss their tea t make it in time for our block booking, set off for sentosa t join the rest at wavehouse.

after he adopted my theory of "think ferrari, get ferrari" mindset, he decided he wanted t go race the maserati that was 300m ahead of us. which of course he never caught up with.

never had the love for oaks. till i realized i dont look too bad in the driver's one! haha. new hair!

bodysurfing!

happy boys:D

came out of th showers to th rainbow nd th awesome sunset.

nd the two too lazy t walk back t th car boys.

so the driver left for fight class nd took my new shoes along with him nd probably will end up wearing them t strut around or do some funky things with them given his excited reply when i told him i left my shoes in the car.

outram bak kut teh for dinner, g's place for family guy nd simpsons. home. TEEHEE. tomorrow's gna be another awesome one yet again. YOIZX!

2010-06-18T12:44:00.000-07:00

even at sundown, i'll still be there

something dawned on me right today. what i believe nd hope t be th end of one nd the start of another.

it dawned on me how i never made it as an awesome friend. how i never made it as a good other half.

i realized that there are times ive said no when a friend needed me. there are times that ive let them down. even though my heart doesnt want to, i more than often always have that happen in the end.

i might not be the kind of friend that would break your trust(not deliberately for those times ive done it or other than that i probably pretty much hate you). i might not backstab you nd go around with my stick nd gong nd go around announcing t the whole world about the stuff youve done. but even so. that doesnt make me awesome at all.

ive failed the ones around me a lot. t the extent i think i pretty much failed everyone at this point in my life right now.

this is me offering my apology for everything ive done to make the ones close to me upset. this is me admitting to my mistakes as a friend. this is me trying not to let my apologies be like a free flow buffet.

2010-03-16T14:03:00.000-07:00

Nd you make dreams reality

I HATE HATE HATE HATE uni life): they rip me off my social life nd keep all my friends
Tied up with school

I absolutely can't wait for may t come! Heeheeheehee

But so far? Life has been awesome! Love all! Can't wait t see my baby this weekend!

2010-02-24T12:43:00.000-08:00

I wanna be with you tonight

i wanna be back in SG cause im missin you, im missin your love):

it's 4 am here now(5am SG) nd im still wide awake layin in bed bloggin. feet has been sore like maddddddddddd 6 more days to go!

i gotta go sleep(nappy) now and i cant wait to hit shopping with the girls tomorrow! YAY!

2010-02-20T10:02:00.000-08:00

heart's set on you

you know it sucks how everyone is still in the cny mood as like me and we have a whole line of activities planned but im BED RIDDEN while my friends are happily gambling above me): sucks to be me. and quite frankly im living with it and enjoying the bliss out of it that i have friends for company while im sick

but if i wasnt sick i would have been upstairs enjoying the sound of mahjong tiles hitting each other and loudly proclaim "HU" "GANG" and "man tai" while i happily keep my mahjong chips in my little drawer. or i would have wenta meet j for abit at city alive(this shit makes me feel old) or phuture with ah boy. I HATE BEING SICK!

and this bug needs to go away because i still have got so much i gotta do! i have a country to conquer the next week!

talking bout country to conquer, im gonna be in bkk for 8 days and i know im gonna come back totally repulsive of thai food but it doesnt help that im gonna miss you like some mad bitch especially when im leavin you in the hands of the united nations. ):

okay i need to go convince the rest im totally feelin normal so they can donate to me i want to shop till i drop fund! :D

2009-12-19T08:56:00.000-08:00

into my world

over at liat starbucks now(: with the much loved nd my caramel macchiato with extra dosages of caramel:D

we're gonna go catch avatar! HEEHEEEHEEE! idk what else t blog! oh! nd i found out tht house nd trance music actually has 32 counts before they change their tune. nd now ying is raving over milla jovavich! nd claudio wants his boobs to grow bigger! HAHA. nd lesley has a uber duper cute mini havianas strapped t the car key!

nd i love you stick!

okay. bye now!

santa baby! so hurry down my chimney tonight!!!!!!

2009-12-14T20:04:00.000-08:00

I want your love, I don't wanna be friends

Been awhile since I actually left anything down at this space. Gotta blame twitter.plus!
Its uber hard t blog via your bb! Much has happened meanwhile and while the events in my
Life are still ongoing I'm more Or less contented though I could do with a little more
greed. Haha

Headed for some private redbull event last night and it was freezing cold! Vapour from
Our breaths were mighty obvious and I swear everyone was tryna get everyone sloshed.
Belvedere bottles were coming in giants. I swear I had no idea how michelle actually made
Through the drive back home.

Thank god for Brendan. Else Lin and I wouldn't have been able to make it home, given that
We were both on our phones, outside the car, in the rain. Haha!

Okay now I'm in the mood for a cycle! But the sun! ): okay I'm off to get ready to head out
Now!

go, no go?

2009-11-16T01:54:00.000-08:00

If its gonna be a rainy day

Everytime they were gonna fall I begged them not to. I detest the feeling of having them
Roll down my cheek. I told myself they don't fall the stronger i'll become. And when it
Came t a point where I couldn't handle it. I realised the pain hasn't decreased. And all
Along they've been falling on the inside.

I want an answer. But I don't know how t go about asking for one. I don't like having t
Lie t myself everyday. I don't wanna seek for a heavy downpour so I can hide them.

2009-10-26T22:21:00.000-07:00

Its you and me I'm trying

In life there's definitely a few whom you care more for and you take into consideration
How they would feel. But sometimes the devil within gets unleashed and this horrible
Side of you gets displayed. Unintentionally you end up hurting the ones you love in ways
You never knew your action was capable of.

I never meant for my actions last night t bring about any unhappiness t my friends and I'm
Honestly sorry for it. Though we've had a million nd one quarells but I know the one from
Last night brought about a lot of disappointment nd the quarrel was just different from
The ones we had.

I might have wanted something at your expense. Something that would require me t give up
A lot of the time I spent with you. I was upset when you said you wouldn't care. And when
You said you were just kidding bout the times where you forbaded, I knew you were lying.

But through this it made me realise how important you are and I had rather grow up with
The future that you nd f had planned for me. I know apologies aren't the key factor now.
But I really feel so horrid for the way I made you feel.

Nd t f. I'm really appreciative of everything last night as well and you were really
Trying t resolve things and I really appreciated everything. I know I'm about as stubborn
As my blackheads and I'm really sorry for involving you in things I shouldn't be getting
You tangled in. But I really care for how you feel as much as I might not show it as often
As I feel.

And so from now. I'm gonna go find the devil nd get him tucked right beneath my layers of
Fats and I'm making sure it never steps out again.

2009-10-17T13:46:00.002-07:00

Your 22nd white rose

I don't know for you, but for me I've met with the best sort of people who go
Through the worst parts of your life with you. And they stick around long enough
To get close t you but due to circumstances they leave but neither party is
Forgotten?

S, you've been one of the greatest one could ever get. And you gave me the most valuable
More than anyone else at that point of time could. When you left you never failed t give
As usual, however, this is the most valuable one. You never let something slip pass you
So easily.

S, I still wish that you're still around. I still need so much help now. Could you
Please come back? Please?

2009-10-07T13:43:00.000-07:00

seeing forever

been an eventful week! though i was brutally treated not having any space to camp on last night. i was told i was left half a blanket but after i took a water break and came up only to find not only was the blanket gone but 3/4 of the bed as well.

had super yummy korean last night! did i mention i totally adore the wagyu?

Duos gonna be gone in a bit more and honestly i cant describe how handicapped im gonna feel. need another DT now. see yall!

2009-10-05T08:34:00.000-07:00

our memories, haunted.

I was so absolutely right to feel that way and have done the actions i did. Apart from affecting those that i care for (which i am termendously sorry about), i do not regret my actions a single bit at all.

blacker than the the kettle i overburnt and charred.

2009-09-24T16:40:00.000-07:00

Nobody`s home

Sometimes I wished you were still around so things might have been different. Through you,
I fought fate which I came t realize you'll never win a fight against it. I thought you
could have changed the events and only after a long while later, I was aware of the fact
You were in the cycle as well.

Never thought I'd find something quite like you gave. But seems like fate yet again proved
Me wrong. Thank you though. Now I've seen and given up. I've stopped trying so I think I'm
Gonna catch some sleep. And god, let's make this a long one. Enough t last.

2009-09-12T03:30:00.000-07:00

private getaway

im honestly annoyed with uob. and i absolutely hate having to replace stolen cards.

yoga has been good! really. not kidding. fang nd i headed for the second session yesterday and the moves are becoming easier nd easier plus there's lots of gossips to hear and actions to catch in the changing room.

michelle's back and so is the fun! i find myself getting deprived of coins daily though. so much catching up to do! picked her from the airport and there was a total mix of terminals. haha. followed by unpacking at michelle's!

dinner last night after yoga and did i mention baths are damn therapeutic after breaking out in sweat for an hour nd a half. hung out at my favvvvvv spot while we gladly snapped away following the cam whore.

im heading out with daddy now nd ive gotta go get ready before he comes back to pick me up!(: fatty's place later! plus!!! dinner @..... and i cant wait to meet the rest!!!! pussycat dog?

2009-09-07T07:16:00.000-07:00

4 inches, 8 yards

i absolutely adore stealing photos from michelle's blog because they're just that convenient. and im incredibly lazy to bring my camera out to snap shots. besides. i hate the photos it produces now.

anyway ive been on this frozen yoghurt craze as of late and i absolutely adore it for breakfast as much as i get bitting sensations on my gum because of the whole mint mix ice nonsense.

to counter that, ff(fuck friend), dawn and i are heading for hot yoga tomorrow! bikram yoga! fatty's decision to pull out is definately a good thing because i cannot imagine how grouchy she can get if she goes into the 40 degrees room and she actually has to stretch her fats. *she claims she pulled out because she doesnt want to laugh at the site of me doing yoga because she'll laugh, but honestly? more like she's too lazy and she had rather spend the session wasting her money around the mall or sleeping in her car.

anyway ive been online the whole time. time to refresh! im heading out to bake now! before im back to watch my 90210 im taking too long to watch it!

oh pictures from peranakan food last week! plus melvin's place! his dog coco looks a little demented up close but stil damn cute! plus she's the cutest bundle ot joy and she is damn light! i still miss humphry!):

2009-09-03T06:42:00.000-07:00

pullin up close

sent the "girlfriend" and girlfriend a couple of days back and am super sorry to michelle i couldnt send her off cause i was totally worn out. im missing the stupid calls made waking me up from my sleep just so i can direct him to his stupid school or planning for dinners and end up being so late that the restaurant closes before we're even done.

we spent the last moments sleeping?! while they cooked as i snored away because greg was totally boring me out with some youtube video on how the cars in singapore's pimped and their exhaust pipes are as big as your faces and they sound louder than ferrarris just that they sound like they're farting? nd he said the gosselins were boring!?!

the dearest fool decided to be really late and arrived at the airport at 6 when his plane departs at 640, still could smoke and walk SLOWWWWWLLLLLYYYY to his boarding gates. not forgetting it was darn hard to wake greg up who basically became one with the sofa.

headed for laksa earlier today with the fat nd skinny duo and im feeling utmost queasy now. think it's the coconut milk with chilli nd HEAPS of oil acting up. been waking up early nd nothing feels better than being under the sun. i guess solar really does give you energy as much as i hate the uv rays.

gonna nap now before i head out again later! no more handbrakes up this time! byebye!

2009-08-31T22:46:00.000-07:00

off the re-sling

its been raining since 1pm and ive been awake since like 530 when (i just have to exclaim again) michelle called me up to ask me about downscaling photos on photoshop.

im feeling all sleepy over again but there's shopping to be done plus ive to run errands for the demanding fat one. it's the girlfriend's last night in singapore and we're gonna be out to celebrate in someway or another. i cent believe how jinxed the second of sept can be. three good friends leaving on the same day and i can imagine the days in singapore after.

i cant wait for the yummy dinner later plus the unplanned list of activites we have on later tonight. plus the list of activities lined up for the month of sept is probably gonna take my breathe away. K and i have got plans up and we're in the middle of confirming everything and im praying everything goes really well. i need to rush out now before im slaughtered. good bye!

photos at sunset grill!

and in case you guys are wondering why leo is in the list of level 30 chicken wings eater. he only ate ONE piece and since it was avail for 6 people we included him in. oh did i forget to mention? he was taking shots of tomato sauce right after eating the chicken. but im still so darn proud of him that he broke his own record.

my dearest friend eats tomato sauced wanton mee and basically everything without chilli.

2009-08-29T12:21:00.000-07:00

let's get it up

headed for level 30 chicken wings nd steak plus very good soup earlier for dinner! my tumm's in the utmost discomfort now. damn the milk nd water. im much excited and the girlfriend has been back for almost a week but leaving soon): why so quick!

poker nd mj over at yat's now but greg and i are camping in the room at the computers and that son bitch ass cant stop throwing this dirt sucking gel nonsense at me. not forgetting he keeps rubbing plastic at my ears and simply cant get off it.

OH OH! we saw goats on the roads the other day too! like truckloads of them? okay two trucks but like double decked with goats on each truck and it was so cool but god damn smelly?!

okay im gonna go out to cheer on for the person who will split with me his/her winnings! bye bye!

2009-08-22T13:30:00.000-07:00

welcome to the land of fame excess

ive been even more addicted to jon nd kate plus 8 ever since the gosselin family's saga following jon nd kate's divorce. i could basically plan a whole itinery on it!!

okay hungry now bye bye!

2009-08-17T04:36:00.000-07:00

makes my soul so weak

by command of the mother who's basically much scarier than the white tigers in the singapore zoo or practically anywhere, im ordered to go down to the airport with the family later to send my sister off else the allowance could jolly well fly away till further notice. im gonna expect tears from the cixi and maybe the boyfriend and the sister.

so well she heads off HAPPILY to tour europe before settling down in paris to study. it's gonna be quite awhile before i see her again, reminds me of how i dont have rides to far and ulu-ated places to exploit, no one's wallet for me to use like free when i run out of allowance.

then again, she's gonna be leaving quite a bit back here so okay! works as well! i cant wait t eat all the good food later!!! byeeeeeeeeee...

2009-08-14T16:21:00.000-07:00

keeping true

this is gonna be a god damn boring post and as usual, no visuals added

im honestly sick of a lot and i just want SOMETHING to be on track in my life. i wanna wake up to knowing i have something to do daily, like a routine. and enjoying the weekends so completely because that's when i have my "breaks" and slog off on weekends nearing the date of submission with the people who basically go through thick and thin with me throughout the whole school year.

yes. its surprising it's coming from my mouth but two coming three years of fun has been enough. no doubt school has been on. but i think ive have had a tad too much of fun when it's meant to be school.

life has been mundane. im wondering what other kinda fun we can have. i need something/one enticing in my life. im not talking about clubbing because if it's simply redundant if i spend hundreds a month on alcohol and drink my liver to the hospital in time to come. im very glad with the friends, so no.. no complaints of them.

it's nice to see your light on home when i pass by it. as much as half the time the speed travelling past your house is going at 100km/h. lets me know you're still alive and pretty much not dead? no. im over you.

time calls for something exciting. someone! something? abolish holidays cause they're already part of plans.

2009-08-13T14:24:00.000-07:00

how close, so tight

i really wanna add pictures into this mundane space and into my bloody facebook but i dont even know where my useless camera went to because i havent used it in like 43364695847284724902 centuries and much less talk about the cable. it calls for a new one soon! okay after the phone.

its a shame how shallow our conversation has become. okay though not exactly saddening in my context it's wonderous what time, people and words can do. i dont find a pity in a lot of things at all and i guess time really does wash away a lot which i guess anger and probably that dash of hatred is counted in one of them.

so anyway! the past few days have been good! i totally enjoyed midnight shopping with michelle at mustafa just now! and we were having the time of our life sweeping in the incredibly cheap stuff from there! we've been making plans with the fat nd skinny duo and i cant wait for december to come!

it's gonna be hell of a hectic weekend with helping the sister find the gloves which i happily lost, packing her luggage for her (im only saying this to make myself sound nicer) and running around for the last minute stuff. i cant believe she's gonna be gone for quite awhile and im definitely gonna miss having her around as my chauffeur! brighter side i could get myself a license and exploit the usage of her car!

okay my shows playing now!!! bye bye! ohhhh jon nd kate plus 8 is so bloody addictive!

2009-08-05T08:48:00.000-07:00

Does he take your breath away

my legs are sore and held captive because fatty decided to lay thy trunks on my butt because it's damn comfortable and no one wants to save me because harvest moon is so fucking addictive.

so we had a nice breakkie this morning before heading back home which i happily and practically painted every possible thing pink. i couldnt sleep in peace at all because there was someone constantly at my fucking ears creating a wreck.

okay. bye. IM DONE TYPING ASSHOLE

2009-08-04T09:51:00.000-07:00

embracing life

ive been sick and sleeping for the past two days and finally we're heading out. ya at like 1 am. it was so terrible yesterday i swear i could have just rolled off my bed and my face is bloody swollen due to allergies now!

okay so the sister is coming back from bkk in awhile more and i cant wait to see what im gonna get from her. yay! okay. out for fish head bee hoon now! yummm yumm

LA? i think it's in U.S.

2009-08-01T17:44:00.000-07:00

pressed to the heart

im having a major case of a swollen face. darn, my allergies getting worse. it's been long since i last saw the morning sky and we're gonna go for brekkie now! byebyebyebye

ohhhhhh please be at the st james flea laterrrrrrr!!!!

2009-07-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

flying high

spikey's barking like a mad dog downstairs. oh wait, i forgot. it is a mad dog! im so boreddddddddd im looking at blue's old videos. and i was telling on about how i used to love lee ryan and i was blatantly told :" does he like you not" im swearing fatty's an absolute bastard and i cant wait for fang to come back so we can paint nails together!

im a hungry cow now and i want to eattttttttttttt!! okay. byeeeeeeee

2009-07-28T09:13:00.000-07:00

feeling ending

im having major huge cravings for desserts right now but seems like the fat one doesnt wanna settle it for me! FANGGGGGGGGGGGG can we go please have desserts. so the past few days ive been hearing praises bout thong love's photos and ive been immensely proud!(:

fatty's pretending to cry now and i swear i should be taking a photo. so sunday we couldnt manage to catch public enemies despite travelling all the way dowwwnnnn. headed for lan instead... and i swear i could have died if i played another stage of l4d. man. the game is getting dead boring i should hit back to my guitar heros! CASEY LYNCH, okay. major sense of killer-ment here.

caught public enemies yesterday instead and i reckon the movie was counted good though a lil dry at some parts. had meesua and i went back home to puke the shit out of my life. including my bile, and yes bile not gastric juices. the yellow yellow bitter bitter stuff tht's meant to help you break down fats? BILE. okay dead boredddd.

okayyyy! we're finally getting out of the house nowwwwwww and i want my slurpeeeeeeee! byebyeeebyeeebyeee

2009-07-26T08:15:00.000-07:00

with me

hokay. so i officially need to find things to do as from now on till oct. everyone's starting school and i honestly dont know what to do meanwhile. getting a job seems out of the way for me cause im simply too lazy and waking up at 8am or earlier daily seems impossible.

i cant be twittering my life away and it;s not as if i do it excessively. i do it only like once a day? haha. so much for life away. meanwhile, everyone seems tobe sick and i cant wait for my sister to go to bangkok a week later to grab me all the stuff i couldnt get.

okay, i think im just fucking bored and fantastic 4 is boring the shit out of me. i cant wait for movie later and im feeling hungry and i absolutely forgot to express how i dislike my aunt. you dont call someone family when that person insults the shit out of you the whole time and scolds you when you call for your dad. he's my daddy. NOT YOURS.

oh, by the way, the hoegarden last night was uber satisfying... yumm yumm. okay. bye now!

2009-07-24T11:24:00.000-07:00

movin in the dark

im very unhappy cause i cant find the wallet! can someone please bring me the brazil elle spread?? i want t find ittttttttttttt... angry!

i just had a satisfying dinner and the food was oh so good. yumm yumm! ive been saying that the whole time from the car to the groceries back to the car. nd fatty was just saying i fall asleep within a second on the command on asking me to do something. of course luh! that bloody fat ass doesnt do anything at all. cut sausage all.

so michelle decided that she leave 4 durians and 2.5 kg of mangosteens to the three of us and we had the time of our life gorging ourselves to death. so full so heaty! and fatty made me choke on green tea at dinner and nd it all went through my nose):

jolene and i are laughing side by side on the floor at the web pages and i cant deny how continuously amusing the internet can be. so now the whole world is taking a ride on my ass and okay, 5 million each please.

complaints now, bye!

2009-07-23T06:34:00.000-07:00

rousing the devil

i cant stand the bloody bodyaches happening on me. im getting paranoid and keep wondering if i caught H1N1 or something. the bloody fever accompanying the flu is coming over me and making me even more uptight have fever and flu being symptoms of the bloody swine. but baby's given the idea of ordering sushi in and im totally lovin it.

despite being sicker than some old lady with a walking aid, im still sicker in the mind and insistent on heading out. but fatty and i cant decide between drinks at mandarin or desserts at altivo. HOW! okay, i think i had better get ready first.

byebye world. im still fat and lazy. well, known fact isnt it. im looking forward to the wagyuuuuuuuuu!!!! :D

2009-07-22T05:53:00.000-07:00

as hard as i did in love

i swear ive been eating non stop or not eating at all this is putting my tummy through a toll!

so the coffee dates have been good. thanks for the midnight company love! met with christie for my favouritest chicken rice. fine, favourite only after i had it.

im still damn lazy to upload photos!

ooogay. i need to run along now!!!! late to meet the fat nd skinny duo! goodbye!

2009-07-21T08:59:00.000-07:00

way of loving you

im at fatty's and fatty's singing in the WORST tone ever!!!

okay. and we're going off now. byebyebyebye

I LOVE CHICKEN RICE.TT

2009-07-18T12:56:00.000-07:00

Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

okay, it's been bout a week odd since im back from bangkok and i honestly miss the cheap cab fares there. not to mention the really cheap but yet still damn stable and comfy heels!

but life has still been good. the endless chill out sessions with the clique has not been anywhere lesser than fab.

so on tuesday the fat and skinny duo accompanied with me pigged out over at sushi tei for the nicest meal ever in weeks for the poor souls who only had macdonalds and cup noodles in the 5 days after i left bkk cause they were so sick of the food there. headed for drinks over at tcc and then to my fav secret hideout!(:

headed for marche on wed then to rebel after. apparently all plans to drink was put to waste.

stayed in at fattys for thurs

spent the friday havin dinner picking jolene from zouk then to my fav secrethideout again.

you know despite all that has been happening as much as they might not be major im glad things are picking up, and im honestly very contented with the way things are and i really dont have more to ask for but for things to keep the way they are.

hokays, i neeed to run now! byeeeeee.

2009-07-17T08:22:00.000-07:00

someone else to take control

im staring at the photo with my eyes wide open i could literally just fit toothpicks in so that my eyes can be kept open continuously.

okay so im really mother fucking irritated. so everytime we spoke about similar issues i was probably just wasting hope wishing you would come around? probably a little tad too naive on my side and actually believing you got all of it into your head

2009-07-16T11:00:00.000-07:00

but we're fine

okay, so im mother annoyed at this mother fucking bitch who's not doing this just for the fucking first time in her life. im so angry im sitting in fatty's room till i could just literally explode and spill my lard all over. GRRRRRRRRRR.

fuck, if you dont have your fucking own one dont fucking touch mine! fuck, seriously. to begin with when it all started i gave you your fucking chance and you chose to walk away. and now after like 2 fucking months you wanna walk back in? fuck luh. keep your fucking hands off and this is not the fucking first time im warning you about such.

NOT THE FUCKING FIRST TIME IM TALKING TO YOU ABOUT THIS! fuck. the past few times they were fading away and i could still tolerate it. but not this fucking time. hasnt a single bit of anything from our 4 hour long conversation back then gotten into you?

fuck you are really fucking stupid and you dont fucking care about someone you fucking call your fucking friend.fucking whore.

so pissed. then now quarrelling already you happy already luh!

2009-07-12T09:19:00.001-07:00

love redefined

so im finally back from bangkok! not a bad trip i'd say!

it's a sunday and we're having a movie marathon and pictures up as soon as i decide im not lazy. HAHA.

oh and to you? how good do you look being two faced? saying a thing you mean and the next day doing something that you totally dont agree with, only to look good? if you dont believe in friendships, i do. so someone can be picking up my leftovers i thrashed aside. so if it betters you making me sound like a fool, let's not forget all those while who's using who's money. oh. and if i forgot to mention in our half hour phone call? it's a new revelation now. suck on it, bastard. im back to despising you.

2009-07-02T01:42:00.000-07:00

waking up to love

okay a final one before i go. im just 2 nd a half hours away from takeoff and im somehow not so excited.... maybe the fact tht we have to hunt for hotels the first night is quite a turn off. HAHA

so michelle's being the sweetest nd she's gonna send me off to the airport in awhile. fat ass keeps calling in hope to rush me down to the airport. tsk so annoying. im not even anywhere near check in. or whatever you call the thing you do at the counter.

so im gonna be gone from a week of our usual activities, but it's like half the clique's gonna be in bkk together so what's there to worry!! teehee! okay i need to go get everything done now. BYEEEE

2009-07-01T09:35:00.000-07:00

worthy to me

in another 19 more hours im gonna be jetting off and im honestly so excited!

i cant wait to head to kao san with fat ass for our 20 baht pad thai and cheap booze!!!shop and drop with fang and ive already got plans up on sleeve to command the digustor to carry my loots! haha by the time he ever reads this the trip would have been long over!!

meanwhile im gonna miss the rest back here so love nd goodbye! im heading to lunar now! oh by the way! macdonalds happy meal makes me happy!!! i love my insectosaurus!!!

2009-06-30T12:52:00.000-07:00

securing his world

so the 5 are over at krabi now. honestly i cant wait to go over!!! no, im not going over to krabi to busk under the sun, which is not even anywhere near my to do list. so michelle, fatty's dad and i sent them off. and we staged a drama as if they were going away for months. but i honestly do miss them quite abit and im missing fatty's morning wake up calls to complain about peasants, fang nd i planning down our to do evil list of things and actually wanting to make it happen till fatty said it was damn leh cheh to go down nd open the gate and the seemingly endless glass doors

bao's idiotic dancing and her try to hard which turns out to be rather amusing way of imitating my head shake which she ends up shaking her hips as well, paul's laughters tht accompanies along and how he ridiculously makes fun of my actions. disgustor's annoyance is gone and is somehow peace to my ears but there isnt anyone i can quarrel 24/7 with anymore nor any exchanging of threatens and stares.

im over at work now which i cant wait to get away from but it's not till 4 hours later. and ive been either roaming around the airport with michelle or shawn who came down to find me or using the internet. im wondering why i even took on this job. i honestly wished i could be home snoring my ass off without having to worry if im disturbing anyone.

which is well basically what im about to do about.... now!

2009-06-27T16:15:00.000-07:00

he's more than just amazing

so we just came back from yet another trip to jb. i swear the authorities will think we're up to something funny one day and our time spent at the customs will just get longer nd longerrrrrrrrrrrr. we spent at least a good hour nd a half over at the customs just going in nd out till the extent john nd michelle were playing with the car lights.

spent my day having coffee over at bakerzin with the cousins after the baby boom. town with michelle after and finally to meet the rest over at causeway point.

JB ended probably a tad too early compared to what michelle nd i had expected, drove around seletar and we got lost terribly and we were in terrible urgency for the loo!

nd while we were almost reaching my place michelle suggested strawberries nd sleepover and we decided to head midnight grocery shopping! and it ended up as a 5 am, fondue for two party over at her place caught taken and i swear it's god damn bloody good! it's now 7.34am and we're supposed to wake up at 2 later for our fantabulous plans but my hair isnt even dried yet! and she's still bathing!

i dont know how we're gonna make it by 3 to meet the disgusting one. but john lam asshole. if you ever read this before we meeet you, please make sure you're awake AND READY or not i will put koosh nd nicholas in your room. BOTH AT THE SAME TIME. oh did i forget to mention? make your life a living hell in bangkok!

okay, love!

2009-06-26T15:47:00.000-07:00

even my heart

just back from jb for some very yummy noodles! which i havent got any idea what they're called exactly! but i know they're really yummy as compared to the stupid korean food we had for dinner

headed to zouk on wed and after to rebel! drank and im having alcohol rash now. how very annoying. and i should have listened and not eaten the prawn at jb cause it's adding onto the itch nowwww.

shopped on thurs with michelle and we're gonna have more to do tomorrow and over next week! headed to jordus's after for some steamboating! and i whisked up some chocolate mousse while i went on the phone with joyce fang nd fatty.

im waiting for the disgusting one now but im getting super tired so i think im gonna head to bed like, now. i cant wait for thurdsay to come! and i'll be absolutely ready to jet off!!! BKK here i come!

2009-06-23T19:33:00.000-07:00

no matter how the skies turn grey

so my laptop has broken down on me out of nowhere): and im using another where i have no photos in it at all and im super upset cause i think that laptop's gone for good. MY PHOTOS!!!

okay so the clique has been durian hunting! lots of hiking!!! feels good!!!! so the other day the drivers drove into JB and we decided to stop by to check out the areas after, and we ended up climbing mountains in the worst dressup EVER. impromptu decisions.

michelle got stung by hornets, i found my first durian after hiking in the forests for so long, ive got the most disgusting cut on my toe thumb my flesh is sticking out like 24/7. we made marvellous plans on what to do with dumbfounders.

its 1.25 pm now and ive yet to sleeeeppp and i need to meet jordus later at 7 i had better nap nowwwww byeeee

2009-06-17T15:20:00.000-07:00

dawn watching

to the one person that annoys the shit out of me ever so frequently, always goes back on his words about eating chicken hearts when he fails to fish up enough prawns, chucks his things around the room leaving me to clean it up, forces me to watch animal documentaries with him till it bores us so much that we both fall asleep, insults me when i play guitar heroes because he thinks im very lousy,

throws things like MY BISCUIT at me repeatedly, takes me as a constant sweet nd tissue provider, threathens to leave me alone in the jungle taking the torchlight away, enjoys making me relive my fear of the car accident, doesnt tell me our hotel room runs yellow water till the last day itself when i was done using all the possible water

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASSHOLE

as much as you're a total bastard sometimes, you've your moments of being the direct opposite so thank you for being you and bringing in so much entertainment into my life.

the passion fruit meringue i got that you took so long to eat which turned out nua because you refused to listen to me, but still yummy non the less! much love!

2009-06-16T15:46:00.000-07:00

hold you tight, treat you right

had dinner over at some fish steamboat place near fatty's sometime backkkk. the salty wrapped chicken was uber good!!!! and so was the soupppppp!!! headed for some rockin rock band time after, i have no idea what's with the world tour fetish as of late too.

went for fondue over at holland's haagen dazs after with yet the fat and skinny duo. i dont know why but somehow it doesnt taste as good as it did before but ff nd i still love the pound cake!

spent our time over at guardian till lateeeeeeee. TEEEHEEEHEE! i love holland's late night guardian!

2009-06-15T13:34:00.000-07:00

finding passion

barbecue over at john's last weekend! meant to be a crab party and im salivating upon the thought of yat's mussels with clams now! so shiok! but aftermath so itchyyyyyyyyyy, but i cant take crabs so it wasnt too much of a party for me but im sure we all had fun! especially with the sponge bullets........ let's just say the boys had their fun exploiting john's younger brother's toys....

hell shit load of guitar heroes after, headed to michie's for her to bathe nd get changed. got out to meet the fat nd skinny duo for fei fei wanton mee! fatty nd i just absolutely adore swimming our wantons in chilli soup!

this part begins where the boys had their full fun with the guns shooting out sponge bullets...

2009-06-14T14:02:00.000-07:00

i got my angel now

finally found my cable and im gonna throw it the photos bit by bit cause im gonna send the damn cybershot in for repairs. my dad's gonna kill me if he finds out about it cause the camera's not even close to a year old and the responsibilities talks are gonna come on again.

so a few weeks back at indian food! food so good we went there two days in a row! so this was thursday, where jovene,john nd bao accompanied me to arab before dinner to grab my cloth before paul came. drove down to indian food! i wouldnt mind climbing mountains nd hills to get to it!

after this photo was taken i told john his eyes looked droopy nd sad. nd he pulled his eyes up. nice attempt of undroopy nd happy eyes john.

amused by the glass, bao decided to transform it into a hat.

and amused by bao, a server in the restaurant decided t get the headress off a statue in the restaurant for bao to put on....

headed t john's after for some guitar hero rockin. john's attempt on expert mode for drums? failed.

click on the video! oh and the awful singing? it's mine. HAHA

headed to twenty six after to meet the fat one plus the girlfriend

INDIAN FOOD DAY TWO!

did i mention the fat and skinny duo decided they should make me run about before we had out meal. oh. WHY NOT.

headed to meet yat nd jolene after at cathay for monsters vs aliens! the movie was so cute! and the disgusting one couldnt resist calling me insectatarus after. WHY NOT.

okaaaayyyy i gtg sleep now else im not gonna make it up in time for fatty's graduation! loveee.

2009-06-13T17:46:00.000-07:00

you're like the sweet morning dew

hello all! no, you're not at the wrong web page but ive just put this site through some changes and i honestly like it a lot better now! okay so please tell me if this is better! i wanna hear opinions!

so ff nd fatty cycled over to my place we went to get my tyres pumped up and headed over to thomson for some prata, teh liamu, chicken nd eka. headed to jordus's before with the lot nd the cake was so good! okay. just the cake base.

i cant find my cable so im just adding a few photos to spruce things up!heeheeeheeeheeehee

btw. i hate you for breaking our promises.

barbecue at john's

lok lok in jb. gave me the runs the next day

honestly i dont care how auntified i look.

butter? zouk? the last week jo ann was in singapore.

2009-06-12T14:31:00.000-07:00

and again

i just got back from dp's for a mini barbecue which consisted of super little food compared to how we usually go. honestly idk why but there's so much about life to anticipate now that im lovin it so much. OKAY nd its half past 5 in the morning and i just got a call from ah beng. and now though shall attempt to drive out. BYEBYE!

2009-06-10T15:35:00.000-07:00

love bipolar

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORDUS VALENTINO LIM FAT FAT BINGJIE!

knn chao si pui eh. though you have lied to me umpteen times be it for real or kiddingly and our friendship is like taking a rocket and jumping off it and doing it continuously, you know i will still always love you in this love hate friendship of ours.

i dont know how the recent years would have went by without you and maybe the outcome now might have had been different, but as much as sometimes i admit i do neglect you i still have appreciation for the things you've done and i do keep them in mind. fatty i hope you slim down this year and finally graduate from taf club like how joanna, li eh lao bu, wants you to!

ps. this photo has resemblance to the one we took at butter recently!

2009-06-10T14:44:00.000-07:00

your touch is magic

just back from a round of cycling at east coast! and we all cycled so far! okay! john bladed so did bao who joined us late. we cycled for a good 5 nd a half hours taking occassional breaks at like sunset bay nd etc. ff!!!! lets make this a weekly thing! feels so goooddddddd!!!!!

okay im dead tired nd it's time for shopping tomorrow! so bye all!

2009-06-09T13:52:00.000-07:00

that rock nd roll

ahhhh!!!! im so excited bout every single thing! so the 5 of us are jetting off end of this month/early next month to bkk! okay! in just about two weeks more! YAY! okay this time minus jason cause he cant take leave from camp.

im feeling completely excited ff nd i are gonna jet together to bkk to meet the 3 who are heading off to krabi first for some sun nd beach lovin. i cant wait to shop with ff till i drop! though i know im gonna miss the fools like crazy when they surf nd sun in krabi while ff and i work up on whitening! HAHA

nd ive been thankful for all for vaunt! thanks eka nd vanessa and the 6 of you who came down and had to pay the awful nd exorbitant parking for 3 cars to support the show. teeheeeheeeheee i really love yall a lot!

promise to do a proper update bout everything! and i cannot waittttttt. bye!

2009-06-05T17:41:00.000-07:00

whisper in your ear so divine

im over at joyce's and its mighty 843 in the morning. and im still not asleep! but im uber glad i got done with one outfit and i just have another to go which is easy peassssyyy as well.

i cant wait for sunday to be over and done with though im anticipating it in a way or another. i know i havent exactly got everything settled but i know everything's gonna be just fine. and i cant wait to book air tickets to bkk! and i cant wait to fly on the 4th!

im not gonna sleep and im just gonna drag joyce out at 11 later to head to bugis to grab barangs. but first i think we need to settle things. im getting quite sick of the quarrels we've been having rather often recently due to shit loads of misunderstandings.

2009-06-03T15:08:00.000-07:00

if there's an expiry to our love, a million years isnt enough

coming across some stuff was something i didnt expect to along the whole way cause i thought you were long gone. and i was gradually putting behind the things that you did, i did, we did. though with occassional mention of the things that reminds me of you or us.

though ive said i wouldnt give up the things i have in life now for you to be back beside me again i cant help but miss you when i chance upon things and thoughts are triggered and i remember what you used to do when i was upset or well, sometimes pretending to be.

how you brushed through my hair and asking if i was okay when i was upset tht you were speeding in your car for no reason. i never saw all the things you did for me till everything ended, till i looked back.

others came in and left eventually cause i noticed how i never casted you outta my mind even with them around. no longer did the world come to halt with them the way it did with you, nor were there songs for us to perform our awful duets down the highways, nor was there someone who always listened and made it up to me when i complain bout moments like this, secrets we would share and laugh like fools in the middle of the roads and i couldnt find myself more ready to do and give every and anything for anyone anymore the way it did with you.

i guess bottomline's that i really missed you and i wished you were still around

2009-05-24T13:29:00.000-07:00

love at port dickson

just back from jb for a round of seafood which basically only leaves me with prawns, due to allergies. however much i love crabs, however much they can kill me ):

craziest thing? we just got back from port dickson this evening. and we planned the trip on thursday and set off friday morning. HAHA

the trip was absolutely fabulous though i hated the fact we had to change hotels cause the hotel we stayed in for the first night was fully booked. we called it heaven and hell.

the first night was fab and the hotel was equipped with a jacuzzi, a shower ( comes with a pullable overhead to opt for a open air shower or not) a glass to see thru to the sea below and a king sized bed plus another day bed. and best of all. a balcony that over looks the whole sea view. the whole fucking hotel was built on water! and room service was so prompt! the 6 of us stayed in our hotel rooms all day! well... almost.

the second one had a sea view which was okay..... but our shower was oozing out yellow water which john only told me on the last day itself, * i thought the both of us were lucky not to get the yellow water issue like the other 2 couples. i found a bug before i bathed which john had to kill. and he found a piece of idk what filled with blood early in the morning. which i had to dispose of.

we spent the first night hanging around our rooms, heading to the lucky restaurant which was reviewed to be super good on the net which turned out like crap. even the school supposedly our landmark to find the restaurant was like crap. bao and jason had the time of their lives climbing over to our balcony, scaring me in the middle of the night to steal john's ciggarettes for them which i ended up thinking was ghosts. drove around to figure the area out and found a carnival in the end, picking up after john's mess in the room.

headed for water sports early in the morning and i had a hard time dragging john out of bed which resulted in screams till breakfast. HAHA. had our breakfast and headed to do watersports and we had difficulties finding and ending up having more screams in the two front seats of the car, supposedly i dont know how to read maps. checked out and into the other hotel. dinner was over at the mexican restaurant in portdickson and food was oh so good.

we all overslept and i was annoyingly awoken up by door bell ringings and phone calls. OKAY fine, i ignored the door bell ringings and left them for john to climb out of bed to entertain. HAHA. headed for lunch and we drove back to singapore which i was learning to have hot legs from the melayu seventeen. doesnt seem to work too well though.

I CANT WAIT FOR THE ROOMS WITH PRIVATE POOLS TO GET BUILT! so the 6 of us can head back there again! YAY!

anyway. so lazy to speak more so here's all the photos!

ps. ignore the difference in picture quality. i was using john's dslr and my lao pok not even one year old and runs on 8mp but doesnt look like it camera.

second day at port dickson

2009-05-18T14:37:00.000-07:00

lost and insecure

i know i owe everyone a million pictures but im like super lazy! HAHAHA

anyway!!!!! i cant wait for so many things to happen. and honestly, wouldnt give about the minors now! EXCITED!!!!!!

love!

2009-05-16T03:08:00.000-07:00

i'll know it by the feeling

im over at fatty's and she keeps stealing my games to play!!!! first was guitar heroes then she just stole over my left 4 dead to play and im dead bored i bathed humphry. and fang is done bathing now so i'll have someone to entertain me. YAY! steamboat now! byeeee

i love ff so much.
I feel fat.
But I just love to show off my fats by lying on dp's bed!

2009-05-10T16:21:00.000-07:00

kept warm in your love

honestly im mother fucking annoyed nd disturbed why people are turning to become like that.

by doing all those and being so foolish and childish and wanting to be even more stupid than you already were to begin with to even dwell into such things/thoughts in your context of trying to salvage the matter. havent you embarrassed yourself enough? now it needs to head public? go ahead.

fuck have you ever thought before you did all that? does it make you any different from **************. please practice some ************* and not tyring to bring you down as much as i love you. i think the phrase *************** really suffices. and the way the whole issue was brought about to you and you actually consenting to it. WHERE HAVE YOU LEFT YOUR BRAINS?! or did angelina jolie/jessica alba appeared when you were looking into the mirror?!

can you please fucking practice more ***************. i dont know how you can just throw it all away so easily ***********. you arent ***********. so why? what's so lucrative at the other end of the deal tht made you do all these?

and fuck you fucking bitch. fucking go eat your own sour grapes if you love it that much and stop teaching people all the fucking wrong values in life. fucking whore. oh wait. i forgot. not even fit to be one to begin with. fucking hell fashion fast BACKWARDS cuntface. such a disgrace to all **********.

fucking root of evil fuck fuck fuck.

2009-05-07T13:20:00.001-07:00

tryna get back to her love

ahhhhhh so its the usual wed night over at zouk. was killing zombies before cause i was so mother pissed. left midway for bugis to meet ff nd dp and i was shit talkative. back to zouk and i couldnt help getting more talkative and getting excited bout how im gonna have company next year! YAY!

called the fat one up cause i was kept awake by the nauseating feeling of the alcohol in my tummy and i told him how i wanted to eat the duck i read from michelle's blog which is reviewed to be not tht nice by my friends. apparently a lot of people ate before alrd ah. HOW COME I DONT KNOW. HAHAAH 34 kg. HAHA

got conned into going down to beauty world which we had peranakan food in the end. I STILL DID NOT SATISFY THE DUCK CRAVING! food so yummy, tummy so hungry i was so lazy to take pictures of the rest of the food tht came after the first few dishes. HAHA. due to have durians after but all so exhausted and i headed over to joyce's in the end which she slipped into total coma after awhile. PICTURES!

anyway, restaurant's located at beauty world, top floor? the one where the pool area is, restaurant's located adjacent to pool area!

2009-05-05T10:14:00.000-07:00

so right, so tight

im so tired and hungry and idk what to type. omg. and im out in town now and i fewwwwwwllllll like a hungry angry man/woman/fatass. your choice. boo

2009-04-29T16:54:00.000-07:00

denying facts

when i was 15, and i was standing infront of the departure gantry filled with tears all over my face and a boy told me to always stay happy and no matter where he is, he's always gonna be right there though the difference in forms of communication and lesser visuals.

it's been 4 years, and your physical presence missed almost a quarter of my life, but your love has always been felt. thank you for always being there being my all forms of support even at this moment right now.

a lot has been happening for the past two months, i know i dont deserve to have things going the way i want them to. but if given a choice to trade anything else in my life now that i love for it to become better, i wouldnt.

this summer, the boy is coming back as a man. it's been months, you've been missed nd im glad june is arriving, though you'll only be back for 3 weeks, please dont make sudden plans to jet off again.

the other love is coming back too and for good. honestly, i cant wait to go down the list of things we have up for plans together with her. cherish yew! come back soon!

ive drawn the curtains and my room is mighty dark, but i love it this way and im prepared for a good snooze. i know things are gonna get worse, but im gonna keep positive.

2009-04-27T19:00:00.000-07:00

your loving soul right on the line

it's ten now and ive yet to sleep nd im supposed to be awake at like 1 to make it to school later. damn. i wished exams were over. bright side, im mighty glad with the collages for the lookbook ive done! though im pretty sure there's gonna be a hell lot of people having doubts about the grades im gonna get with my almost negative standard of photoshopping. HAHA

there's something wrong with the net nd not forgetting the macbook which auto shuts down non stop and im having trouble uploading photos! mighty annoying and im dead tired.

i cant wait for tomorrow to be over so i can finally let my hair down, and i cant wait for next friday to come so exams are finally over! be gone with fashion forecasr and theatre!

so anyway, mighty lot of complaints tht i havent been exactly the nicest friend ever flying aeroplanes, not turning up at dates and yadah yadah. im terribly sorry and i will try, to my best ability, to keep by promised outings and call up those tht i havent been calling as often as of late.

off to meet my pot of gold in lydia's wonderland now though i know it's gonna be really hard with all the online distractions and i cant wait to get back home from school later to catch up on my sleep before i head out again! FANG FANG!!! let's go take whitening jabs together! im beginning to get disgusted with the colour of my arms and face. SO DARK!

once i wanted you so much, but now im dying to shake you outta my head and even more, outta my heart.

i know i shouldnt, i cant and hopefully i wont, because he'll just be made another R. how the both of you were to me for each other.

2009-04-26T13:04:00.000-07:00

we've lost the human touch

there's been a mighty lot of issues jumping up my nerves as of late and i know i cant blame the time of the month where female hormonal growth is especially active, it'll be quite scary if it actually lasts for like a month!?

serious cases of sour grapes and you(s) giving lectures when they havent got the whole picture themselves and even if they still do wanna give, it'll be a huge contradiction because what they're speaking of are the exact same things they're doing. besides even so they're in no total position to do so? CSG, WEC.

anyway, ignore the fools and now lets jump to joyce's 20th! happy birthday FOK!

to the person with the nehh nehh as big as the two people we spoke of, i know we had our fair share of ups nd downs, our never seem to end quarrells, but i'm sure you know better where the intentions come from and im glad i have you my fellow insomnia mate to keep me through the wee hours of the day, be it together pigging out on our favourite macdonalds sausage or over the phone/online talking nonsense to each other about the star awards/ our spoilt mouses/ imitating ridiculous smiles of others/ heartfelt talks/ watching stupid movies and shows together and screaming the fuck out of ronald macdonald/ checking out if we'll get swept away by tsunamis and discussing how we'll die/ if our houses can withstand natural disasters?!!? IM GLADDDDDDDD. and you know i love youuuuuu..

celebrated nehh nehh's 20th over at rebel. and im glad she had her fun this year despite fucked up exams! bright side both of us end exams on the same day and we're definately gonna rock the best out of our holidays! 8 weeks hols HERE I COMEEEEEE!

photos to be uploaded soon! i hate my internet.

2009-04-24T08:02:00.000-07:00

love game

feeling mighty accomplished ive actually been to school twice this week. a huge leap forward! though guilty of my non weekend/wednesday booze. loved the sweet strawberries surprise on monday!

met with christie, cinead, shaun nd co at mietta's on tues and headed over to wine connection later, after i got down to cathay to catch the boys perform and a whole long time with wendy.

the usual wed at zouk and pictures are finally up on fb!

spent thurs finding joyce at like midnight. spent our time watching bimbotic videos together.

and im over at lyn's now on a friday after school and a mighty satisfying dinner and im heading out again later! okay off now!

+++++

ah beng went over to lyn's for abit and the both of us headed off for not so yummy supper as he claims of it to be. damn. knew i should have thought of somewhere else.

friday with ah beng

2009-04-17T11:52:00.000-07:00

just us two lovin

YELLOW!!!! i just wna share with everyone how amazingly cheap airfares are now! you can fly to paris for 688 and LA for 800!!!!!!! recession has its pros after all!!!

did i mention how cheap shopping is now! b and i totally bought new clothes in town and it was like restaurants were all having promotions and we had a fabulous jap dinner earlier on. though im super upset my money's missing out of nowhere because i dont even know where it went (at least tell me i dropped it or someone stole it!) i guess the retail therapy helped and turning down things tht includes drinking because it's gonna burn another big hole on top of the original one made me feel so much better.

and no fei zhue, im not gonna be unable to lose weight forever just because i didnt go down today. that's a very bsd curse t lay on someone. okay!!! im gonna talk to miyi now!!! and HONG KONG! HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. okay. assessment be gone first!

he wouldnt surprise me by picking me up the way you did instead i had to pick him up, he wouldnt let me sing at the top of my lungs in the car the way you allowed me instead i was shut off by him, he wouldnt tolerate my nonsense the way you would without any qualms, but most importantly, he cant make me smile effortlessly the way you do.

2009-04-16T05:50:00.000-07:00

shake your ass to this beat

headed over to zouk for a rocking good time. had coffee over at orchard parade before and headed for some zombie killing time after. i totally forgot i was on medication and i happily went on with all the alcohol all the way till 330am. i honestly need to kiss the floor because he's finally gone! though only for now it beats nothing. HEEEHEEEHEEEHEE

and im definitely proving myself and friends more that i have the tendency to wander off when im drunk. isnt a surprise to me now why dp always traps me down when i start to show symptoms of alcohol reaction. i reached home and found tht i set my own nail on fire while trying to light up my candle and pet thought i was trying to burn down the lock of my gate.

headed over to kap after the whole night of hello!-im-one-step-closer-to-liver-failure to meet the girls and im here blogging instead of studying! thou shall think of exciting things to do later! HEEEHEEEHEEEHEE..

to see you do your bellydance and watch you eat a thousand cows, hear you sing your malay(?!) songs and yell at you when you're making me upset, quarrelling with you when you drive and enjoy every single moment of sweetness when you give in.

2009-04-14T05:03:00.000-07:00

my man who loves

headed over to kap after school(!) for some good time draw for vik's session though the rest wrecked their brains out over business management and chemistry.

mel picked me up after and headed to jurong with joyce bao amanda and jac. cut some slack ah. not fast and furious please. had so much t talk about and im glad things were spoken.

stirring coffee

2009-04-13T12:33:00.000-07:00

you're the reason that i still believe

had steamboat on friday and we were so insistent on finding a clean place to settle down for steamboat cause dp has been having the runs for days and i was already showing symptoms of it. DAMN. meant to be a farewell into army dinner for yat but he spent his time bowling over at sicc instead. tsk.....

spent saturday over at gastrobar for tht bit which was as good as redundant, caught dinner/supper over at railway mall and we settled for a super long chat!

i spent sunday shopping with my mother while my sister gladly played driver. and i slept the whole of today away till m picked me up for chompchomp. im home now and praying i can wake up for patternmaking later. BLESS ME!

ive had my fair share of missing you.

2009-04-11T09:44:00.000-07:00

thought i'd be readily strong enough

ji liap's twentieth! headed to dp's after school and we went down to dtf for some mega food munching. fuck, i swear we always over order! but birthday cake was oh so goooodddddddd! headed over to loof after for drinks and long chats.

ji liap i know you hate to read my blog because you think it's fucking wordy but this is for you so if you ever chance upon this please read it hor!

thanks for being the person who's always the loudest, the most ganchiong one, the crazier one in the group. for always picking me up/sending me home, go on phone chats with me to talk about endless things when im down or not, goes shopping with me and the only one who will spend 1 hour in tiny watsons at paragon with me to shop for facial stuff.

we havent knew each other for long, but we've been through a lot together which includes near death moments hor! we might have our differences once in a while but you know i still love you a lot!

HAPPY TWENTIETH PRINCESS MICHIE!

2009-04-10T14:50:00.000-07:00

we've got the answers, but no explanation

this is gonna be a oh boyyyyy long post...

headed over to raffles city to meet pet and courtesy of j who picked me up from school for tht short distance. thank you. had dinner over at asian kitchen with pet's mom nd jem. lovedddddddd the duck... so goooddddddd... ff nd feizhue nd feizhue the other! lets head there some day! duck so good and cheaaapppp. much better than the rip off version we had at crystal jade!

headed over to zouk for mambo with pet and ying, beating my previous week's longest lasting mambo moment! and i caught jyne over at zouk again! feet so tired in heels for a good whole five hours i placed it in the massager for a good half an hour before heading to bed. felt oh so good please! had dinner over at some reallllll authentic jap restaurant before heading down to zouk with the two plus alex nd keith. food so good yet again! and i feel so fucking pampereddddddd... feeels sooooo gooodddddd!

carriage for heartaches.

2009-04-07T12:46:00.000-07:00

cause he's taken you for granted

finally a whole day in school and im so mother proud of myself though my designs were blatantly rejected by vik. and of course, so did my fabric not escape vik's prompt disapproval.

to dp's after for a very well disturbed sleep. she COULDNT RESIST shouting nonsense into my phone to the poor friends on the other end of the line. not forgetting breaking the barrier i set in between us. throwing patrick onto my head. creeping her hands and legs about. keeps asking me to practise cantonese with her. basically keeping me awake for tht 4 hours. WHY NOT FEI ZHUE! all while fang fnag was online shopping and she ignored my screams for her rescue):

dinner after at macs, and the fatass couldnt resist over ordering, AGAIN! even at macdonalds?! to joyce's after, and jac came and we all did school work! home and nick came over to pick me for the airport and now the bestest is back! okay! pictures! and i think humphry's damn sad tht he was shaved!

j, idk why but i always feel so comforted after talking to you be it when im down or not. you might be as retarded as you can be, your replies rarely ever matches my questions but every little thing you say is still as comforting as it can be. be it rain or shine, im sure you know i'll always be there.because everything's always so right with you around.

and thong!

thanks for being the best spiritual comfort food ever!

Kyte. says:
it really hurts to see you cry and hurt so badly by those bastards you know
Kyte. says:
as a friend I don't wish to see you like this
Kyte. says:
dont get hurt please
Kyte. says:
dont make me worry over you getting your heart broken all over again

Kyte. says:
you know what I really want you to get for my birthday?
Kyte. says:
Is for you to be happy and healthy and always be my friend for as long as we live (:

always knew i could count on her and that she loves me best! i know i always bring you down about how you look as a bung but you know i never meant any of it and i love you as much as you love me! i cant explain how thankful i am for covering my ass up for me when we were younger to my mother who loves you best. always make sure im kept safe no matter what happens. thong! thank yewwwwwww!

cotton candy

2009-04-06T16:53:00.000-07:00

you nd me, all alone.

headed over to dp's before heading over to west coast for some illegal acts. HAHA. oh, which in anycase. we caught a woman parading around naked, half way throughout.

i cant believe we almost quarrelled over it, and i could feel things heating up in our conversation. but im really glad you sat down to listen in the end. but whatever it is, im glad we're still back to the same old us. thank you.

2009-04-05T06:06:00.000-07:00

for one more smile on your face

friday was off to town to meet ying nd pet for coffee, drove over to holland after for our waffle nd ice cream fixes. met the lot over at selegie, and we headed off to clarke quay for some boot camp session with bao jun. OMG. talk about PE, though undeniably. one of the best weekends ever!

2009-04-04T17:01:00.000-07:00

on the back of your postcard

i was sufferring from such a bad hangover on thurs after all the neat vodka, martell, wine, lambos, beers and whatnot i gave school a miss, AGAIN. and by the time i headed out it was just nice for a cuppa with pet nd jem before settling down for a nice dinner with them plus lesley, keith, alex and im sorry i forgot your name.

had the most satisfying dessert after meal and i headed off to meet jac after meeting joyce, who never fails to entertain me being the most retarded soul she is. and wanted to send joyce nd i home just cause we didnt bring the dog out, cannot resist complaining about how far the uob atm machine is, how leaves are crying when they fall, complains even when i eat and dont eat. critisizes how far i flick ciggarette butts, enjoys digging into my bag, tells me i look better covering my eyes/ mouth with the picture of a rotting mouth you find on top of ciggarette boxes. tells me the exact same things we did when i ask her what is there to do in the west... why not.... if not for the kinder bueno surprise, i would have walloped her.

im still there standing.

2009-04-04T05:33:00.000-07:00

in my heart

wednesday was a total knockout with the alcohol and probably my longest lasting mambo moment! cheeky chocolates with the old and shopping with michelle after, before amanda nd joyce picked me up for zouk.

i never knew, but i guess i do now.

2009-03-31T14:08:00.000-07:00

who wouldnt remember it all

i finally got my project done after 10 straight hours of staring into the computer screen. a satisfying 35 slides powerpoint. YAY ME! okay plus one hour of sorority life which mabel got me super addicted to at like seven in the morning?!

to school for stephanie's and a whole lot of us scooted off to the toilet halfway for some makeup frenzy.......

met pet for dinner after with ying and jem and now she's the proud owner of melon. the new hamster that shits nonstop.

headed to nick's and he sent me over to corporation, a fucking scream like crazy over directions car ride. doggy night out after and i swear richard nd jojo is fucking cute! west coast for "supper", love the tattoo ideas. thanks joyce, sorry jac!

zouk tomorrow and i cant wait b!!!!!! seee youuuu!

before you give me a fucking useless "life lesson",which in anycase you're in no position to, why dont you settle your fucking social insecurities first. you're fucking more messed up than i am and arent you practising the exact same things you accused of me to be doing? nobody's perfect? guess what, you aint even close.

2009-03-29T07:35:00.000-07:00

we've fallen to this place

it's sunday and im still lazing around instead of doing vik/eliza's work. bad time, BIG time.

went for my stupid and nonsensical lesson on friday with jac which is mandatory in anycase because the school says so. joyce's place after and we were both lazing around like jellies. ohhhhh and why not. jac had the time of her life making fun of me on the way to joyce's.

phuture after and im so glad NO ONE was left sober. everyone was falling around at the table at the river at the stairs, EVERYWHERE. hell shit of photos taken and my finger is fractured by jac because she refused to let me take a photo of her in her uniform after shamelessly telling the fella at the backdrop tht the bag i was collecting isnt my bag which he actually believed, so im just gonna let the photos do the talking for me.

and sat it was over to town for dinner with christie and constance. love jap! coffee talk with michelle after then to jordus's place. and now i feel like drinking my mushroom soupppppppp..

i cant express how up to neck everything is. it's choking me and i feel like i could faint, and im wondering why everyone just cant give you and i a break. im beginning to realise what i had told her was right, everything you do is gonna come back to haunt you one day, just as long as one person finds it wrong even though you presume it's right. so is it that fun ridiculing at others when you're a million miles away from perfection yourself?

2009-03-26T14:57:00.000-07:00

to make it better

i honestly hate uploading photos into facebook cause my laptop doesnt work well with tht fucking photo uploader thing they have. BUTTTTTTT ive been requested to do so.

anyway. was over to phuture last night for jolene's 18th! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARIE! caught jyne over at zouk before i went in to knock myself out completely for the rest of the night. i was telling joyce this morning how i felt tht there was so little dancing done and so much drinking it felt as if we were drinking half the time. and she told me i spent my whole time drinking and screaming. HAHA

nd jac told me she wanted to slap my face for snapping pictures of her in her horrendous uniform. HAHA. blah blah and i blabberred a lot of nonsense. i was screaming a lot at dp and she was screaming a lot at strangers whom i claimed to be my friends for the night because i was so drunk and they were talking non stop like chickens to me, and i still have NO idea why i cried. fucking bad hangover morning after. beelay passed on her talkative disease to me.

stayed home all the way today and did a hell shit load of sleeping. because some very inconsiderate fella decided to show off him lamborghini around my fucking house for god knows what fucking reason. his engine could be heard going in circles around my estate for a good half an hour and kept me awake in the early noon when i was supposed to be recovering from some hangover. fuck you fucking chao ah beng in your fucking white lambo.

pet picked me from my place later in the night and went to pick jac nd ying for macs over at west coast. ying baked super cute and colourful cupcakes!!!!!!! tht she's making me feel like baking right now but lydia ran out of eggs and is hoping she could get them from the strangers she spoke to at zouk last night. HAHA. ng i swear jac was a bitch. HAHA. from the cupcakes to the car shots. TSK!

eh! why your colour so cool one! i wanna take!

shit. forgot my macro! dont eat more yet!!!

EH! i take wrongly!!! see luh!

STILL WRONG EHHH

jac: tsk, take so long. i put on the floor k!
me: DONT MOVE EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

so the four are heading for some serious gambling over at macau tomorrow and shopping in hk once done with tht. SO FUCKING JEALOUS. but fuck life's good and the weekends ahead sounds so good as well. and i cant wait for next week to come! and at the rate im going. i think very soon i will join tht si pui kia, jon, in hospital very soon. CHOI!

2009-03-24T14:07:00.000-07:00

for that second chance

you know how when your life flashes pass you within a matter of seconds and your life was endangered, and when you escaped it all you'll think of someone to pick up the pieces with you/share what happened? he/she is probably the most important person to you at that very moment in life.

im glad he didnt come to mind, but he did instead, though it's making me realise how him and i are going around in circles, the way rumours do. knew it wasnt gonna be that easy, but im glad it's him.

okay i nearly died. and im glad we're both alright. safe and escaped with no injuries. i think god was watching us.

it's wed tomorrow. so friends, please ignore my calls from 1am onwards!

love love! NEXT WEEK FASTER COME LEH!

2009-03-21T16:01:00.000-07:00

baby, am i doing too much?

weekends are here but almost over. and i havent got much productive work done with school, spells bad, but im aiming to finish up everything by tomorrow since im pretty much FORCED to. stupid deadlines. upside, at least i passed textile, so far.

over to town on wed, headed to dp's place for her to change and for some rocking guitar hero world tour time before heading to zouk much later in the night for some good sessions of crazy drinking and i swear jordus and i just cant get away from our lambos. and he had to catch me being super tipsy and holding onto another drunk one. OH! WHY NOT?! j called, and i dont deny he's still very much like me.

met with michelle day after for some good coffee session and shopping after school. dinnered at taka nd bao nd jor joined after. coffee round number two with chu sheng, leo nd ailin after, blabbered on about cars.

fri was an impromtu decision to zouk at 12. cup was never empty the whole night. i almost died with a mind battle going on the whole night.

got woken up by michelle today, headed to town and i caught a rainbow. loved the colour of the evening sky. a failed ice skating trip. thai food for dinner and west coast for long talks. still road after for desserts and hated the fucking food. pet came, went for drinks nd drive nd home.

i needed to figure out the way you're behaving, cause i cant apprehend nor decipher any single action of yours. you're like a series of codes, i figured out the pattern but i just cant solve it because it's ever changing and more things are included as i keep working ahead. and the only second thing im doing right apart from not introducing you to my friends for fear i'd get reminded of you by them is probably walking away now while nothing's been carved too deep.

but before, could you please explain why wait for me till my school ends just for tht one minute of coldness?

2009-03-17T13:29:00.000-07:00

and my heart loves the view

school's in and i feel like shooting myself in the head. kinda like the way i'll shoot a witch when i play l4d. the urge to do school work is slowly kicking in nd i swear it's a fucking bad sign. then again, i only have myself to blame.

so it was over to suntec on sunday, and i realised how im turning my life around including my meals. steamboat after cause we decided it was a tad too late to head into jb.

the finale.

had a nice tea with ben, yanru and giselle after sewing on monday. met fang in town after nd we have no idea why but shops are getting more treacherous these days. what's with the clothes?! pet came nd headed to holland for coffee/tea with ying nd boon. nd we continued driving ard singapore. which includes heading down to downtowneast nd to west coast.

spent time after school around, nd some baboon just couldnt resist copying the way i spoke. and asking me to mimick stupid actions tht we caught people doing. and wiping dirt on me and shamelessly smile at me after and still blame me for being slow.

l4d after. nd i think the tank looks damn weirdishly disgustingly cute. ying nd pet couldnt help thinking bout zouk later on while they mamboed away on the spot to songs in the middle of nowhere.

and at this moment right now, ive my own fears. i need to know everything's not gonna turn out the way him and i did back then. still, i can never stop smiling/laughing when you're by my side, your silly entics and your nonsensical language, and im praying this will last.

2009-03-14T14:34:00.001-07:00

hips rock, dont stop

i hate being under alcohol influence.

because i'll get burnt by smokers, apparently my friends are half the time more drunk than i am.

because i'll start thinking he doesnt care and randomly start discussing with strangers and asking them if they would care being in his position without realizing i didnt send my text to him out. HAHA

because of the two facts above. i cried like some bitch and my makeup was ruined like crazy when i FINALLY met him.

because i'd drop my phone like it's a nokia 8250 due to inconsiderate dancers who cannot wait to knock into you so you'd drop your flimsy paper like mobile phone.

because of "because fact number 4" MY PHONE IS OFFICIALLY DEAD. and it died on me just when i saw tht he texted in nd now my message from him is stuck inside tht fucking phone.

even so. clubbing makes no sense without alcohol. so who cares if we brought on the tequila, jager, super lambo, midori, beer, apple shooters

over to conrad today t spend our saturday over at ozcar's.

2009-03-13T19:20:00.000-07:00

lets skip this town for awhile

over to phuture on wed. loved the girlfriend company.

i only remember being a tree to koala pet, challenging super lambo twice. and meeting DOM. talking to jem after the party ended. seeing a shitload of friends. seeing my friend act atas. drinking with beelay only to having seen her sprain her ankle.

thurs was out for some good ol girlfriend dinner time nd it was car ride after gaming. plus meeting up with long time no see toni nearby zouk. parallel parking was a huge challenge. sent j back home and we dropped by "jurong library"

meanwhile! pictures. im so tired. i barely remember what happened when.